Just because.

I am on the battlefield.

I am intimidated. I am intimidated by the fact. Tonight, I won't be fun anymore. Generally, I am capable to fall out of love. Why, I hear you ask. Definitely because for 2 years and more, I was the insignificant one. It made me fall out of love. Tonight, I realized when someone fell out of love, they usually fall back in. I am going to be the other party who decides not to be in it or out of it. I choose none.

This capability of driving myself mad in 3 seconds all the time is kicking in. I am not giving in. I am not going to do anything about it anymore. I won't drive myself crazy and I won't try to.